These tootsies are ready to roll!

Stardate 41712.1 Completed the first two missions into alien territory. Continuing mission: To explore my strange new world... To seek out a new life...To boldly go where I have not gone before.

LOL! You'll have to excuse me for a moment, I'm channeling my inner Captain Kirk (though really I've always been more of a Captain Picard kind of girl but that's neither here nor there) and needed to get that out of my system. Blogging is relatively new for me and I can't help but feel like I'm in an episode of Star Trek, sitting in the Captains quarters pouring my thoughts out to the computer. Oh. Wait. That is exactly what I'm doing! Ha! Just sayin'!

Anyway, with that out of the way... I'm happy to report that I am on day 3 (technically day 4 since it's after midnight) of the 365 days to a new me. Well ok, not a new me but a healthier me, a smaller me. Anyway, it's too early to report any major progress yet; however, I am happy to report that I've taken steps - important steps, in what I consider to be the right direction.

My 1^st step was to rejoin Weight Watchers, a fantastic weight loss program that I’ve had success in and in which I should have never stopped participating!  I’m nervous and yet super  excited to get that going again.  I can’t wait to attend my first meeting on Monday!  Wish me luck ok?

My 2^nd step, and this has been the most fun so far…was to go shoe shopping!  Yay!  I love buying shoes (which baffles my son who asks “mommy?! Exactly how many pair of shoes do you need?!  Ah… the innocence!)  As much fun as the actual shoe shopping was, it really did serve a larger purpose because I now have the tools to get myself out there! No more excuses, I need to walk baby!  The best part is that I got cute shoes that will provide good support and help ease the strain I'm about to put on my tootsies... they will be well taken care of!

The only thing I need now to get rolling is a good iPod playlist…!  Until next time :D

   

365 days

For this to make sense, I must first give you an update to my first and last (until now that is) entry. It’s been several months since I’ve last shared and a lot has occurred, in fact everything that’s happened in between entries is what led me to this point, to 365 days.

In short summary, I was finally laid off from my job and subsequently hired on by a new company (yay!) where I've spent the last several months acclimating to the new (and may I just say, very hectic) rhythm of my life. During this time, I've survived 60 hour work weeks, Little D's 11th birthday party (12 pre-teen, hormonally charged and sugar enhanced kids... good times!) a brief hospital stay (I'm fine now, more on that in a future entry) and my very own 34th birthday!

Throughout it all the common theme has been a general feeling of unrest and an overall feeling of nervous and unspent energy. So much so, that I've often thought of it as how a caged animal must feel when pacing back and forth in their small space all the while knowing, seeing and feeling there is more out there... all within arms (or paws, ha!) reach. This of course brought up the question of why I feel caged, which in turn led to a lot of soul searching where I forced myself to take a very long and hard look at myself and evaluate. The answer is not pretty, but it is what it is as they say! (Somewhere my sister is cringing at the use of this expression) In short, my cage is me - I am my cage.

Whoa! Did I just really say that? Yes, I really did…and now, it's time to liberate myself. So here it goes: I am 34 years old and I am seriously overweight female. There. I said it. Deep breaths, hands steady. Fighting the urge to backspace and delete the seriously part of the statement. Let's face it though, it's the truth - it's not like people can't see it. So you'll have to pardon the cliché (but it really does apply to my previous analogy) when I say the truth will set me free! Can I get an Amen? LOL! Cracking myself up here, which is good, laughter is always better than tears. Laughter aside though, I’m trapped by my body and I want to be free and truth be told, I feel lighter already! It needed to be said, admitted and accepted as it's the only way to move forward.

With that, here it is: Yesterday I celebrated my 34th birthday and I'm giving myself the gift of time - 365 days to be exact. In a year's time, I plan to celebrate a better me, a lighter me, a healthier me. I invite you to join me in this journey of loss (the good kind) and of self-discovery. Most of all, I'll need your support to keep me going!

I leave you tonight with the details of my journey undefined, a smile on my face and excitement in my heart for I can't wait to get started!